Do you ever have those times in your life when most things seem to be going just about right but then there are one or two that are just not working? No matter what you do? I'm not a person who thinks things will ever be perfect in every aspect, believe me. If you could walk around in my head you would know beyond a shadow of a doubt that that isn't me. But I think we all know when something isn't working and probably won't because there are things beyond our control or other people are involved or, not involved, as the case may be. I'm a bit, well, maybe a lot, of a controller. I think being a controller keeps me safe, really it just makes me tired.
The difficult part is deciding which things to keep, because a controller thinks she can fix everything and make it work. She's Stronger, Faster, Smarter! Able to leap tall buildings in a single bound, more powerful than a speeding locomotive yada, yada, yada.
I have a hard time with the concept of broken beyond repair.
It will soon be gone. Bad design decision that's pretty easy to remedy, well, it is if you pay your 2 sons to git'r done. That's all adobe used to add more thermal mass to the room along with a bit of rusticity. However, it got out of hand and now just takes up too much space. Everytime I look at it, which is everyday, several times a day, all I can do is think about how to change it. Not a peaceful state of being, so it's going! Yes!
The stove will return to that position and will still be used to heat the house, the 3 times each winter its actually needed. I tried to get rid of it, too, but was voted down.
The wall behind the adobe will be an opportunity for creativity but I have some ideas. At the very least I will have to paint the whole wall because that's custom made clay paint.
The good thing about using adobe and some other natural materials is they can be reused. The plan is for these bricks to be the foundation for an earthen oven at a friend's house. We're even saving the mortar, which is basically mud. It will be reconstituted and used for mortar again.
I like pretty things, I like cool things, I like recycled things. I like to make those pretty, cool, recycled things.
Mom of 2 amazing young men.
Wife to 1 husband.
RN at a Birth Center.
Artist, builder, healer.